Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Like a Slap in the Face

This post isn't about BDSM or even my relationship.  If the idea of this bores you, I won't be offended if you leave.

It's just after 8AM as I write this and I am already having a shitty day.  This is exactly the opposite of what I (WE) needed.  Someone who I considered a friend... a trusted friend... gave Master and I a total slap in the face today.  More Master than me, really.. but I could stand what was being said to him in such a disrespectful manner.  I'm sure some of you will say it is not a slave's place to defend her Master.  It probably is it.

But I don't give a fuck.  No one talks like that to the people who I care about.  It was a total tear down, an attack on character, and an attack on his worth.  I have not been this angry with someone I considered close in years and I don't know what to do.  Master hasn't yet seen what I said to this person (it all took place on a private forum, if you're wondering).  In fact, right now, Master is at work and doesn't even know what this person said.  He might be angry when he sees that I took it upon myself to reply.  I wouldn't care.

I know this probably sounds like internet drama, but we communicate with this fellow (and a few others) online because they live in different countries on the other end of the world.  They've been good to us.  This man, in particular, was good to us.  But this was just a slap in the face, as if from no where.  I couldn't hold it back.  I am the type of person who will take all the shit in the world if you need me to, but DON'T expect me to let you sit there and tear apart my friends or my loved ones without me getting medieval on your ass.  I have no room in my life for people like that and my friends (and certainly Master) do NOT deserve that kind of treatment.

Right now, I don't care that this reflects badly on me as a slave.  I might even get a punishment.  I'm actually not sure on what Master's policy on this is because we've never been in this situation before.  But right now?  I feel it's worth it to stand up for something I believe in.  To stand up for a project and an effort that I believe in.   To stand up for a man who I believe in.  It makes me sick and just ANGRY thinking about what this person said.  I don't think I've ever cried in anger, but I did today.  It was probably a combination of sudden rage coupled with helplessness because this person is too far away for me to tear down in person.

I may be in shit for this later.  But again... right now, it's worth it damnit.



  1. zelda,

    even if you get in trouble with Him for taking it upon yourself to speak up for and defend Him, I bet He will still appreciate how much you care and are willing to fight for his honor. Sometimes *getting medieval * is what a situation pulls out of us. Take some deep breaths and remember: you and He are stronger and can cut any one out of your lives who is not good for you.

    As they say: " this is just a test"...

    Take care!


  2. I don't blame you. I can't help but get angry and defensive when someone is mean to or cuts down on my Daddy. Yeah, he's a big boy and can certainly take care of himself, but he's MY DADDY, for crying out loud! I do know what his policy is (keep your mouth shut, little girl), but I'll sometimes take the punishment anyways. And I know that, inside, he's proud to know that his little girl loves and respects him that much, even though he doesn't like me getting involved in any kinds of drama on his behalf. So just in my opinion, I'd have been right there with ya, girlfriend! ;)